HONESTY... or not?

some of us might be thinking this could be a new twist~ woohoo...
some of us might be sticking to their original mindset~
some of us don even noe the ugly truth behind...
some of us might never be able to face someone in personal...
some of us might never get a chance to see.... again.

.... honesty....
they're right. they had hard times.
they are right on their thoughts.. maybe...
rather letting those good people and those who can works well and have good management ability out unwillingly... why not we be more honest??
ok.. lets call off... the ones who can do nothing,.. the one who did nothing.. the one that gave nothing.. the one that failed to do something to regain the trust and the faith from those who are leaving...
that person would be me.

如果换我一个人退出, 能换回你们两个人(不包括国文), 我恨不得这样做!!
你们换吧!! 也请你们二位, 回来吧!!!
不要跟我说什么＂勉强没幸福＂．．．　你们回来就是了．．．　求求你们．
不要因为像我这样的人而作出这种选择．　

我了解你们受了多少苦，看到了许多不想看到的．
你们也说人是会变得，可能就经过这一次，状况会有好转呢??

如果要散, 我愿意做最后一位退出的, 看着你们一个一个的抱着 遗憾 退出.

GAPS 空虚

If i am awaken earlier...
there would be no gaps between us.
i would not feel awkward and useless while listening to what u guys had paid and contributed for the camp...

The 4th camp...
it brought me loneliness...
everyone seems much busier... i am the only one who had nothing else to do other than cleaning dishes. i did not like that feeling...
from my side of view...
i seem like a stranger to u guys...
i did not participate totally, coz i cant mix in. i feel like i have to right and the "min requirement" to do so.

Tuan Kang,
honestly... i did not involved in... any of it...
the nite when u guys were so excited dancing on the stage... i was alone behind the stage, worrying that my bad throat condition will ruin the nite... and become a laughter for everyone....

I tried really hard.. to ignore.. ignore wads been said by some of u guys,
i noe i cant help much.. i noe i seem jobless, burdenless... u guys were doing so much things b4 and during... i noe this will surely seems so unfair to u guys...
thats why,, i decided to leave as soon as possible...
i don wish to see the tears in all of u... due to the hard times of planning...
becoz i have not paid a thing for the planning...
sorry...

i really missed out a lot of things... and this is the time i feel really regretful and pessimistic.
九校, genting trip, ampang old town, times square...
i wish that, i would become one of u again... the real one...

i am regret
tht i din join those events
till now, i only find out that,
the gaps have gone so much wider.

空虚，
is all i am feeling now.
no matter wad, u guys would be the dearest friends ever to me.
i still believe that we must be in some sort of family relationship in our past life.
take care guys!
i will miss u guys alot.