Seulement AnS - CuRIosiTy~

current mood: down...

2010-04-11T08:14:00.000-07:00

well.. its been long time since the last update.

first thing first, I'm really really really happy to be selected as the top 15... i was very happy! =)

but then, this happy mood didnt stay much longer... as i stepped deeper and got to know the rest of the top14. They are strong competitors! Most of them had much more experience and skills than me.

things are not as bright as i wished tho...

I become down often after all.

For the past few nights, I prayed. I believed if i continue paying more efforts into this.. GOD will not let me down.

-alvin-

少年梦九校联欢会，终于结束了。

2010-03-18T07:12:00.000-07:00

compared to last year's 宇言, this year's gathering. I had put more effort into.

and... the mixture feelings... sigh.. happy!! encore!! come back to me!!

真的很不舍得，真的真的。

也好想像永丰说的那样，抱在一起苦，好怀念。

时间真的过得太快了。。。。慢下来好吗？？顶！

感触的是;

筹备的每一刻。。。Mamak，大伙儿在丰家忙做小册子，炸来炸去，跳了又挑，挑了又在跳。。。跳舞真的不容易咯。。。唱歌好点, 哈哈！看到那么多ss的这样付出，真的后悔去年的我，一直以来，我都不认真做ss的活动，真他妈的我。对不起，我的兄弟姐妹们！！真的对对不起！看了丰，煌，小瑚的不落格。。。。。。没想到会哭，可能是一直在想着那“最后一次”，我不要啦！！！很想做下去，可是，读书的读书，工作的工作，我想像不到如果丰被分去很远的地方就读。。。到时要做打更多油了。哈哈！惨，又想到“最后一次”了。。。

九校当天；

接待！没想到我会是最早到的那位！多谢我的组员咯，各各迟到，有的甚至不会到，没管希啦，我不怪你们，因为我也常常迟到！哈哈!! 接了puchong, vivi 的，时间已经超过接待的时间了，只剩我一个在那边傻傻地等。。。jinjang selayang 的，真的很像我咯，迟到大王！等到了，带他们去和俊勇和宝成会合，还好有他们，不然我会来不及回到礼堂表演。

开幕，不是很顺畅。。哈哈，也不能怪谁啦。之后，一直想尽办法开声，死都开不了！气！结果，唱走音！丢脸到，希望台风方面有骗到观众。哈哈！ｈｏｈｏｈｏ！！　最爽的是－ｓｏｒｒｙｓｏｒｒｙ！！ｈｉｇｈ翻天！听到台下喊我的名字时更爽！哈哈！人生第一次，不会跳舞的我这样卖力地跳！！希望我的舞蹈没丢我兄弟姐妹们的脸，paiseh。第一次嘛，又给了你们。第一次对着电脑掉泪。。。又是你们。真是，前世欠下的啊！哈哈！

感谢；

幕后的SS 及工作人员。。i saw many of you did very well that day!! proud of u guys! thank you!!! without you guys.. the event wont be so successful! i heard comments saying that our gathering was like a CONCERT!! haha!!! =)

lastly, sorry for not continuing typing chinese, something wrong with the settings... paiseh.. and chinese really hard to type lor...long time to finish this. have to check dictionary some more!! omg... btw, i find it really nice typing in chinese. haha. especially when i want to express my feelings... will learn and type more in chinese. haha

what's next? boss? TanEngHong, the first ever and the only person i addressed him as "boss". i know that, u are currently having many difficulty moments right now.. family.. clu.. and studies.. sigh.. i also don know how to help u.. but one thing that i am 100% sure is, me and the rest of ss family... will always be thr for the next coming and the rest coming events!! whenever u say ok!!!

tunwong, thank you for coaching me dancing. I knew i am quite a dumb dancer. haha. sorry a brother... that day.. the boys are really yeng!! haha. i kept watching the sorry sorry videos!

kai ma, thank you for ur advices... u always so steady and calm one.. haha. u did great in gee. don be sad lar, that fella who say u fat should get a slap from me. haha. ok?

4 flowers, donald duck - sorry, i did showed my anger to u during the opening dance training.

moon - really nice experience. haha. next time sing again! u are a better singer than me!

kokchin - i always heard that u are a very responsible person. this time, i really saw it. u did really great in stage progress! omg.. amazing.. bravo captain!

actually - that day u look very yeng! and thank you for ur support, u are always so supportive one. haha.

MBS-KIA, kenqian - sorry a. i forgot to help u do hair!!! shit lor.. sorry sorry. why din remind me?!!

lichen and seemeng - really sorry, i kept making u guys have to redo and redo the dance steps coz i made alot of mistakes.. sorry guys..

wangji - thank you for ur camera... i know u quite angry alr de that time i kept asking u to take picture of 3jianke.. haha.. sorry yea.. u did well in taking photos!! thank you!

hanchong - why sick one.. deng lor... no fun jor.. but u still did wad u supposed to do. goodjob!! luckily u still can support tunwong to do that 45 degrees!

wenhui - thanks alot for ur help... u are kokchin no.2!!! really crazy de.. so responsible!! haha

ahpeng - thank you for fetching me to lrt!! haha. save me some energy. but no claim de a.

meiyee - ur food department really organized lor. compared to last year. haha. i din settle properly. but this year not enuff straw leh... haha

xiuchong & lingquan - haha. great mc leh!!! u two should give each other "ai de bao bao"!!

ailing - luckily u din come backstage fight with me. haha. if not i will not have enuff energy to perform dy.

thank you wenxin, kexin, caini, wanhuey, hsen ming!

WAN MEI DE JU DIAM~

My very own Fairy Tale...

2010-01-24T00:36:00.000-08:00

"are you alone?"
"yea.... "
"can i join u for a ride?"
"yea. ^^"
"I thought you are a chinese, because u looks like one. sorry for the mandarin juz now."
"It's ok, i am half chinese, half philippines........... "
"oh! what's ur name??"
"i am Lyn..."

I will not ever forget such a friend like u, Lyn.
sorry for the troubles... the tears that we caused.
i could hardly speak a word that moment... i saw your mummy staring over us, that's why i left without a really proper goodbye greetings...

the fate came so suddenly but it left too soon.
i do not know when and where or even is it possible for us to meet up anymore in the future...
all i can do now is only by expressing my miss for u in words...
what if we could spend more time together.. what if... what if.... we could meet up again...

I really do appreciate this wonderful fate of us. Its a really fantastic pleasure to know such a foreign country friend like you.
You are so friendly..... and gorgeous. ^^

Especially for, Lyn Ng

HONESTY... or not?

2009-12-27T19:46:00.000-08:00

some of us might be thinking this could be a new twist~ woohoo...
some of us might be sticking to their original mindset~
some of us don even noe the ugly truth behind...
some of us might never be able to face someone in personal...
some of us might never get a chance to see.... again.

.... honesty....
they're right. they had hard times.
they are right on their thoughts.. maybe...
rather letting those good people and those who can works well and have good management ability out unwillingly... why not we be more honest??
ok.. lets call off... the ones who can do nothing,.. the one who did nothing.. the one that gave nothing.. the one that failed to do something to regain the trust and the faith from those who are leaving...
that person would be me.

如果换我一个人退出, 能换回你们两个人(不包括国文), 我恨不得这样做!!
你们换吧!! 也请你们二位, 回来吧!!!
不要跟我说什么＂勉强没幸福＂．．．　你们回来就是了．．．　求求你们．
不要因为像我这样的人而作出这种选择．　

我了解你们受了多少苦，看到了许多不想看到的．
你们也说人是会变得，可能就经过这一次，状况会有好转呢??

如果要散, 我愿意做最后一位退出的, 看着你们一个一个的抱着遗憾退出.

GAPS 空虚

2009-12-19T18:11:00.000-08:00

If i am awaken earlier...
there would be no gaps between us.
i would not feel awkward and useless while listening to what u guys had paid and contributed for the camp...

The 4th camp...
it brought me loneliness...
everyone seems much busier... i am the only one who had nothing else to do other than cleaning dishes. i did not like that feeling...
from my side of view...
i seem like a stranger to u guys...
i did not participate totally, coz i cant mix in. i feel like i have to right and the "min requirement" to do so.

Tuan Kang,
honestly... i did not involved in... any of it...
the nite when u guys were so excited dancing on the stage... i was alone behind the stage, worrying that my bad throat condition will ruin the nite... and become a laughter for everyone....

I tried really hard.. to ignore.. ignore wads been said by some of u guys,
i noe i cant help much.. i noe i seem jobless, burdenless... u guys were doing so much things b4 and during... i noe this will surely seems so unfair to u guys...
thats why,, i decided to leave as soon as possible...
i don wish to see the tears in all of u... due to the hard times of planning...
becoz i have not paid a thing for the planning...
sorry...

i really missed out a lot of things... and this is the time i feel really regretful and pessimistic.
九校, genting trip, ampang old town, times square...
i wish that, i would become one of u again... the real one...

i am regret
tht i din join those events
till now, i only find out that,
the gaps have gone so much wider.

空虚，
is all i am feeling now.
no matter wad, u guys would be the dearest friends ever to me.
i still believe that we must be in some sort of family relationship in our past life.
take care guys!
i will miss u guys alot.

GoodBye A-Level, college life, friendss.

2009-11-21T10:22:00.000-08:00

really glad that exam is finally over....
i am cleaning the spider webs now... lolz``
woke up in the morning today... no more burden i felt.... lolz... no more exam... woohoo~~
realising tht i have very very very much free time to do watever i wanna to..!! shuang!

爽!!!!

goodbye TAR college...
goodbye SN9H AND SN9G...
goodbye TT nite...
goodbye to those ppl tht i wont be seeing u around KL... sigh... emo part approaching..
take care always my friends...

SNSD GENIE MV!!!!

2009-10-31T03:36:00.000-07:00

MY FAV KOREA GIRL SINGING GROUP!!!

iKNOW

2009-10-12T01:32:00.000-07:00

i knew sometimes when i kept silent... ppl easily misjudge me.
i knew whenever i keep close to anyone... rumours would ruin me badly...
i knew... i had made a wrong decision n i did not take serious resolution...
i knew someday in de future.. i would regret every mistakes i made in this two years...
i know, now... i am pretending to be optimistic about my future path..
i really hope my dad wont get a heart attack though....
i am serious... (he inherited the worst temper from my grandpa.... lol...my mom claimed... but i dun... lolz... )
i bet my mom... would support me whatever my decision is...
i guess... my siblings will be disappointed... n begin to feel helpless...
i know.. i know.. after this, i would not dare to step back in my hometown.. relatives will seriously talk n critic bout me...
i am not saying tht i am being regretful.. and the world is goin to end n there is no tomorrow for me...
afterall... this is juz a little expression from myself... its not tht easy to actually find someone who is willing to listen to all ur craps n problems... trust me...
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last month was a harsh ones for me...
been through some kind of situation.. silly situation... the cycle of my teenage..
(a peasant hoping to date a princess... @.@)
all the time, i try to look for the one.. the one girl that....
then...
i found her... but very immediately instantly... i lost her....
i guess, someone had cursed me.. lol! wad have i done to deserve this?
i know.... i seems quite a failure now(in ppl's eye)...
i know... this kind of guy don attract anyone....
things keep changing around me... i am the one who change the most... my closest friends say.

I'M afraid that i could not forget her...

萧闳仁 - 原来你就在我身边 (alvin's recommendation!)

2009-10-04T01:35:00.000-07:00

a fantastic song by 萧闳仁
love his falsetto and de feel of this song's lyrics....
enjoy~!

Human being's emotions are scary. =REGRETFUL=

2009-09-21T11:13:00.000-07:00

a moment ago...
I was eating the first meal of my day... at 9pm.. dun get this wrong.. i slept at 1pm.. so?
9-1=8hrs (approximately a normal being sleeping hours)... haha... i had 8 hrs of sleep..
but then... i din sleep for 24 hours.. hows that?
i dont noe how did i got pass it... the only next thing i felt was... headache.. starving like caveman.. in-need-of-professional=massage!!

an hour or two later...
I accidentally buffered a touching polytonic tone... i guess its poly -.^?.. with piano tunes as well..
Then...
i became emotional... i really mean emotional here.. *(in a sudden, i stopped everything i was doin.. mentally as well.. juz sitting thr.. EMO-ING)* my heart WAS like shrinking.. heartbeats slowed down.. but my brain was diligently wondering how this emotion could happen so suddenly... this music... reminds me alot of things.. and thus.. i decided to pour all these into my blog.. hopefully then i could gets better and sleep earlier in the morning later...
i could not sleep like normal ones somehow.. already... i had to strain myself till super-duper-extremely tired.. then only i sleep unconciously..

its not easy typing this post.. this time...
Thought of many things... events ahead... histories behind... personality and lifestyle i had... and the behavior i changed... I did have many aims... but now i do have some aims.. it's getting lesser for no reason.. maybe i juz grown up alot.. lolz... i do... no doubt...

maybe after all... all i need.. is juz a solution.. so that all my silly emotional moments can get pass quicker... i nid to conclude something bout my life... my live ahead...

the moment... now..
temporarily decided....
SINGING... i will take it as one of my favourite hobbies... something i love to do... something i could not control entirely... it isn't like "the thing" that had been given to me to control by myself... and i abandoned it for singing... i will come back to "the thing"... i promise...

i heard from alot of people... advices... encouragements...
but those juz makes me more confused... BUT!
but it does push me towards a clearer vision on myself... its like.. showing a mirror of myself and warn me looking at myself after all... the life misleads..
Hopefully.. I could surpass this....

I am really confused, worried, down, disappointed and

REGRETFUL...

=alvin=

back to home -Hari Raya Hols-

2009-09-20T04:07:00.000-07:00

first of all... Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends~

felt bit more relieved to be back home here at cheras... couldnt resist the stress in the area that is so near around the college... always reminds me bout the big day when i drive pass it... =.=

I have been wondering...
wad would actually happens to me on the real day?
how am i goin to surpass the one.month examination??
maybe after all, i shuld not haven taken A Level science.... since i realised tht i am really not so into science subjects... duh!

back to wad happened in last week....
i had been wandering in cc for the whole week.. awesome! lolz...
my sleeping circle is totally interrupted... slept at 5 or 6 am.... then woke up at 5 or 6 pm..
stuck in chemistry... even in revision... wad the heck!!
lazy in biology... too much to put in my head... !!!
dumb in maths... too complicated to solve!!!
september... october... november... december... end of 2009///
wad will happen when 2010 comes??

sigh... regret for all my behaviors and wad i have done tht really changed my life b4 i come to college... not blaming college... not blaming the obstacles around college... neither outings...
most probably.. i am suitable in this kind of scientifically field... @,@

nvm... take a rest...
think deeply.. held back the responsibility and try.. i really mean try... not to let down those people who have high hopes on me... though i really feeling not comfortable and free in this chapter of my life...

by the way... Olivia Ong from Singapore is a really really really awesome+amazing singer... love her jazz singing!!!

天使脸孔天使的歌声~！！24 years old angel~

one my fav : alicia keys "if i aint got u"

2009-09-06T10:13:00.000-07:00

ALICIA KEYS - IF I AIN'T GOT YOU

方大同 -《Timeless 可啦思刻》

2009-09-06T06:16:00.000-07:00

專輯曲目】：

01. You Are The Sunshine of My Life (O.S. Stevie Wonder)
02. Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You (O.S. Glenn Medeiros) -de song playing in my blog nw~
03. Bad (O.S. Michael Jackson)
04. Kwang Chiu 狂潮 (O.S. 關菊英Kwan Guk Ying)
05. La Bamba (O.S. Ritchie Valens)
06. Red Bean 紅豆 (O.S. 王菲 Faye Wang)
07. Georgia on My Mind (O.S. Ray Charles)
08. Remember 記得 (O.S. 張惠妹Amei Chang)
09. Wonderful Tonight (O.S. Eric Clapton)
10. Moon River (O.S. Andy William)

專輯介紹】：

方大同2009自選輯
作為方大同音樂養分的一次註記
10首他的經典勾起屬於你的永恆

倒流回心中又一次難忘的刻骨銘心
～歲月流轉疏離年代．此時此刻可啦思刻～

"有些歌是一輩子的, 無論什麼時候出現, 都是新歌
男孩在自己的房間，拿起吉他，上了弦
他溫柔而緩慢地調著這把老吉他，專心的像是世上只有這件事情可以做
一首熟悉的歌慢慢在心中，如輕煙裊裊升起
他彈起了前奏，又唱了兩句，然後像是想起什麼似的……… " - 吊~

原來這些歌曲
聯繫著過往和現在的自己
在時空中交錯著的
是我們了然於胸的擁抱

想必你會問方大同：
“為什麼會錄製這張翻唱作品呢？”
這個問題，其實是另一個問題的答案：
“是什麼啟發了你的音樂創作？”

方大同×張敬軒拉闊音樂會 - 吻別

2009-09-05T05:01:00.000-07:00

jazz version of wenbie by Jacky

-u might need to lower down the volume abit...

Khalil Fong(live) - Love song > 愛愛愛 > singalongsong

2009-09-05T04:54:00.000-07:00

first ever soul musician in chinese pop!

really hope he could come to MALAYSIA for a concert....

girl... do u still rmb this song? i hope u are enjoying ur life nw~ take care always~

2009-08-30T04:06:00.000-07:00

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You wanna know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You wanna know by now how much i love you
Probably change my whole life through
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will be the way it was
Like a guiding star
And i'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are

So come with me and i'll share with you
i'll help to see forever too
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't wanna live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You wanna know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You wanna know by now how much i love you
Probably change my whole life through
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

-out of sudden.. tot of this romantic song... by Air supply.. covered by 方大同.. meaningful lyrics.. wonderful memories... once i sang this to a girl... lolz~

ENJOY THIS PERFECT LOVE SONG~

RnB style cover by Khalil Fong~

update.. sort of~

2009-08-29T09:42:00.000-07:00

well...
officially..
i am starting my healthy meal routine...
no more "diverse meals"...
-for my health...
-for my left arm
-for my skin
never goin to be sick anymore!

alvin's "one of the fav love songs" Kiss Goodbye - LeeHom

2009-08-27T04:59:00.000-07:00

Kiss Goodbye
王力宏

baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走
去跟随

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
我终于明白

《少年梦之再续未了乌龙缘》

2009-08-27T04:49:00.000-07:00

《少年梦之再续未了乌龙缘》

-basically... tis is the 3rd camp me and my friends are organizing in this end of year~

-the details are all written in the application form above.. click for clearer viewing~

-this camp is basically held on entertainment purposes.. social purpose as well... u list it.. this camp got it all.. trust me.. if nt, i wont be organizing this for 4 years long~

-this time, i will be doin the cooking job~
-any further question about this camp... do leave a comment here~ or pay a visit to:

http://shaonianmeng.blogspot.com/

-alvin-

well~ I SERVE NUFFNANG now~

2009-08-25T08:32:00.000-07:00

pretties.. cuties.. gorgeous...
gentlemen.. brOs.. guys...

help me a favour by clicking on the ads on my site here catch any of ur attention~
the ads would eventually include basically all kinds of stuffs relates to:
-musics
-technologies
-entertainments
-sports
-cosmetics (since most of my bloggers friends are female.. XD)
-fashions
-etc...

anyway~ stay in touch!

I will be updating my blog weekly~ stay tuned.. lolz

i am weak~!

2009-08-23T07:15:00.000-07:00

argh...
first of all....
i have been sick for 1 full week!! hw terribly weak i am... i cant believe it...
first 3 days - 38.5c fever!
the 4th day - gastric + food poisoning
the next 3 days - neck twisted + stomachache + dizziness + diarrhea~!
i am really nt feeling well to do anything...
i mean everything...
sigh... my neck... pain like burning in hell... the max i can turn my head is 30 to left and 20 to right... ZzZ

hopefully... the next morning i wake up... everything will become better... pls lar... i nid to get up and do sumthing other than juz online and tv dinner!!
i alr missed the movie orphan with my classmate last friday during huiru's bday... sigh...
missed sing-k session last thurs...
wad else??.... yea... almost a week... no dagei session... but stil ok for me.. i am nt missing it quite much.... however... i am worrying bout my exam revision.... nid to get back to condo asap!!!]

more updates soon... take care everyone...
the haze is getting more serious...
everyone's sick nw...
drink more water!!

pure hearty child... true genuine kind heart~ thou al of us had changed~

2009-08-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

ok~ one more sibeh funny video on HINI

2009-08-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

THis definitely will cheer u up every single day!!

2009-08-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

to all my fren who is currently lays under moody mode...

方大同 - 四人游 MV

2009-08-05T04:44:00.000-07:00

-planning to sing tis song on tis coming PROM NITE~ wadchu think?

Updates.. lolz + XD

2009-07-18T11:01:00.000-07:00

first thing first...
got my MUET result on monday...
then celebrated Jianshen's bday the next day....

-the only photo with me in it on tht day~ lolz

slacking...
still slacking... oh ok.. friday~
celebrated hung's bday...
cancerians... who else bday's coming??
next up will be the leo(s)...
sat,
went for the "in house" college singing competition...
i did my best... i guess... except i sang "ni bu zai" with a higher key than original ones... nearly kill me tht time...luckily the judges' comments are quite positive and encouraging~ ^^
by the way.. will be waiting for the result for the top 30 these few days...
those who are curios bout the comp...
here u go... go take a look...
www.ulement.net

currently lying upon "di cao" mode... emotional=dicao

2009-07-06T06:00:00.000-07:00

TT 09 juz over...
although i performed only one song...
but i felt alot... deep inside my heart and mind..
congrats to my fellow finalist aka buddies...
u guys did a fabulous job last nite!

congrats!
group singing champion = Delight Fourz
solo singing champion = Carmen... SAAAABAH ORG...
dancing champ = critical crew
emcee = Sean! amazing beat-boxer!

sigh..
TT over,
no more singing practice...
like everything also over,
reminds me of my TT moment.. FRESCO 08!!!!
I NOE.. ppl are realistic... the new ones always do replace the oldies...
my moment had been replaced....
sigh... not really sure which is best to describe my feeling last nite,
i was requested by some anonymous girls who admire my singing juniors... to take photo for them....
walao... haiz.. dun noe wads best to explain hw i felt... just felt that.. i am nobody in ppl's eyes...
last year.... i enjoyed the crowd very well...
i enjoyed the moment... being known by lots of ppl...
however... it seems like... end dy lo.. like tis lar... no more dy..

.....
....
...
..
.
looking forward to the days whr new excitements come...
beginning to appreciate my teenage years left...
i am old dy... never tot of that... 19 is old...
i have so so much things that i nid to accomplish b4 getting older!!

Alvin is...
begging the clock to slow down...

ma life's stuck n sucks plus creepy...

2009-06-29T00:21:00.000-07:00

dreamt a dream tht i shuld never dream of...
argh....
"die in my own dream.... having relationship with a female ghost spirit... getting creepy dy.... wandering in a flat-surrounding area... like a forever-maze! kept walking... wandering... the dream lasted for about 12+ hours... (i slept in 5 or 6 am... till 7pm the next day... it happened on last sat n sun... )... i dun wanna talk much bout it... really scared myself off... i mean it... it feels real... i can still recall the touch of hers... the windblow... freak out!!! fcuk!!! wad was i dreaming!!!!!!! "..... she was gorgeous... she was... soft and nice to me... we fell in each other deeply.... although i miss her... but, i really hope tht such a dream wont happen to me anymore.... pls...

de next morning... monday morning....
fcuk... to u.. the car thief....
i dun mind hw much it costs me for the side window... u cost me a TRANSFORMER SHOW!!! DAMN U FCUKER thief.. !

aiks.. sorry guys..

2009-06-27T12:50:00.000-07:00

monday's transformer movie maybe cant goes on like wad we planned dy...
due to..
the website of gsc cinema is currently under construction... i could not reserve any tickets....

the only solution will be getting ticket on the spot...
hope tht monday is not packed with ppl lar...

life's been busy, packed with excitements... juz busy... sleepy as well~ ^^

2009-06-18T08:03:00.000-07:00

its been such a long long time since the last time i blog...
dun really noe wad to blog recently...
nothing really special that happened to me....

except two or three things... erm.. maybe juz two... or juz one~...
-15th june, my classmates besties celebrated tis big day of mine at redbox~ lolz... to be honest.. it was the first time saw tht funny birthday cake screening on the tv in the halfway singing~
we had fun.... most of us i think.... huiru and mei mei... u two ar... (they were the two notty girls who came up with the idea to buy me an underwear as birthday present!~ lolz XD)

then.... shuld mention tis as well... lolz

-monday, we been to redbox.. then the day after tomorrow... wednesday, we went to redbox again~!!!! well... it worths alot.. really alot... friendship.. cheap payment... brushing up singing skills.. u call it... we had 6 hours spree at redbox that day~! haha!! i dun mind goin redbox again.... monday??? guys? haha~^^

CURRENTLY AT MY HOME NW... not condo...

well... my housemates often mumbled at me... kept chasing me back to home during weekend... haha... so.. here i am nw.. finally back to my home-sweet-home... maybe not so sweet after all...

the first thing i did when i came back here.... EAT!! had a really spicy dinner... its been a year since the last time i tasted my mom's fav curry cooks.... better than D mamak at my condo thr... lolz~~!! haha.. but i miss teh ais lar...

monday(tomorrow) will be the appreciation singing audition day... wish me luck~ hopefully i can sing tomorrow.... swt... genting trip stole away my voice... haha...

really being crappy and yapping alots here nw... swt...

got used to the routine of reading ppl's blogs... but not blogging~~ hahah...

anyway... will be back to condo by tomorrow's sunset~

meet up with gundam team~ and prepare songs for audition......

welcome back to blogspot... alvin~ lolz XD

stay healthy everyone~~ stay healthy.....

specially to suetling:

hope to see you smiling asap...

and pls get well asap...

seriously, missing ur smiles... get well soon yea!!!

I'm back - - temporarily

2009-05-23T06:21:00.000-07:00

so long everyone...
AS exam is killing my life... seriously...
killing my free time... my phone(spoil... i bang it whenever i am stress~!! wakaka)... kill my appetide... zzzzz....
fortunately, 4 papers left after all...
well...
not really sure whether i am goin to resit during A2... or choose another "pathway".... sigh... after AS only think bout it.. >.<
ppl around keep telling me not to drop it.. dun drop it... it's silly...
---- i noe.. it is.. indeed.. but wad can i do?? zzzz..... the only thing i could utter nw... blame on...
"I chose the wrong path from very beginning.. lolz"....

exam goes on....
3 more weeks~! ta da~~

i miss camping so much......... camping..... camping.....

besides... hope that... the so called "after-exam wadever trip u call it" could be held without any obstacles.... without any... unwanted "materials" involved in.... ^^
-time for dinner.....
-at cc with "bachelors"... gundam-ing... wakaka

p.s: the world is always unfair one... u shuld understand tht.. maybe u are born to be weaker in certain fields.. or personality problem... so called "face problem"...
well... juz accept the freaking facts lar!
why the hell were u busying backstabing me!! I do not need a paparazzi to report to everyone bout wad happened in my past.. get it???
i could swear if u insist... i never say anything bad bout u.. i am cool with u always....

forgive me for this rude p.s....

i will never voice it out

if i could have the ability to sustain

the way u backstab me... i would never know if they did not

reveal the truth in front of my eyes!

dun make me mad... seriously..

random.. freaking random post

2009-05-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

things happen in an unusual way this week...
i am still lazy to get studying hard and harder....
thought bout mher.. coz recently yumcha with ryan n chung sing....
got to update lots of news bout her...
hope she is fine at thr nw...
wish her new bf will treat her very well.. n.... BETTER....

i wan to get pass this AS so so so quickly!!!
next week exam starts...
last for almost a MONTH!!! wad to do... A LVL mar...

i miss leehom' concert so badly...
i miss sing k...
i miss gundam...
i miss my frens... ss family... tt family...
i miss them all!!!!!!!

i miss my family...

-alvin-

"our bus"- ss family

sing n me

for me.. it sounds very true.. i aint play-boy.. i just haven found my true love... @@''

2009-05-01T08:14:00.000-07:00

双子座
　
　　双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

　　双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。
　
　　一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说：双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。

　　有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向
　　
星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。

　　双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。　　

　当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。

　　说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。

　　双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。

　　在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。

　双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

erm.. my fav song.. used to be..

2009-04-26T03:16:00.000-07:00

p.s: anyone who is watching ASQ09.... u shuld now who she is... superb female singer~

"all the best to u"

well...MUET IS ON SAT!!!! WTHe L L...

2009-04-23T06:00:00.000-07:00

really moody..
i mean it..
the whole week...
last week... even nw...
that shall account why i did nt post any new stuffs for almost 2 weeks ~...~#

MUET IS ON SAT!!!!!!
thx to chris whom have been always reminding me n takeshi bout it...
....... really thx lar... without u... i mean ur notes...
n ur precious "gruesome" MUET question papaers.... i wont even noe hw to face my exam.... at least nw i noe...
- to get a satisfactory band score... its nt easy!!
good luck to everyone who is taking muet exam...
especially to....
-fly chan ching jia
-mei mei n weichie
-chris
-tharma...
-shuying
-jiaxian
-MYSELF@!!!!!

GANBATTE~!

GOOD LUCK!

JIAYOU!

GO DIE MUET!!!
MUET SLAYERSSSS ARE ON THEIR WAY!!! HOHOHO

P.S: SORRY FOR NT BEEN UPDATING RECENTLY... ONLY GOD KNOWS WADS IN MY MIND...

juz me..

2009-04-18T02:35:00.000-07:00

DUN TAKE FROM ME AS GRANTED!

Home "Sweet" Home

2009-04-12T00:34:00.000-07:00

Sat nite
- finally back to my home after almost a month... ntg changes.. just like old days..
- only tht, my parents' relationship has become more complicated..
- i was informed tht my dad hasnt back home for already 3 days.. he said he went to genting...

u may wonder, wad my mom's thinking nw. right?
- she is cool... really super duper cool... she did not complain.. did not spam calling dad n urge him home... she remains very calm.. like everythings is under her control...
or maybe i shuld say... alr out of control.. thrfore both of u do not control anymore?

few months b4.. u were arguing n wanted to divorce... wad nw?
cold war????! not goin to talk to each other???
good... really good... everything screwed up just like tht!!!
sometimes....

i really hate to come back home...

bro n sis... gaming lar... sms-ing boyfren... wad else???

nobody bothers tht i am at home...

few more hours later, i will be heading back to condo...

u all zap shang lar... I've seen enuff of these...

hope mom wont drop tears anymore only...

u betta dun make her cry i tell u...

Argues...

Screw up...

more and more argues.....

then screw

ur whole

family upside

down@!!

sometimes... whenever i think bout my family... wad's still remains?

sweet memories? didn't last long.. not even long enuff for me to recall back..

wad's left... is all these craps.. bunch of craps... no talking.. no close bonds.. no caring...

....... i used to have everything... wad's left nw?!!!

I hate everything...

hate everything that happening on me....

arghh.. feel like.... swt.... @#%%@#!!
had enuff of tears....
i live my own life... juz like orphan... only difference.. i have two younger twin bro n one sis...
u two... go complete wad's undone!!
divorce... go on! i wont choose either one of u!

I believe - lyrics

2009-04-11T02:17:00.000-07:00

Girl
Let me prove that my love is real
I'll give all my love to you
Please trust me

我相信
生命中会有一见钟情的剧情
曾被爱伤害的心不容易倾心
你的眼神配合冷淡的表情
逃避中故作冷静

我相信
第一次凝望你离开我的背影
就盼望立刻能够明天再相聚
不小心梦中让感觉能延续
模糊中你最清晰

I believe in you
窥探那双迷人深情的眼睛
我的心留给你
我的人在附近
不必立刻作回应

不想爱的轻易
需要让你动情
因为怕你会离去
想念让人窒息
所以不离不弃
每分钟都要和你亲近

我相信
生命中会有一见钟情的剧情
曾被爱伤害的心不容易倾心
你的眼神配合冷淡的表情
逃避中故作冷静

我相信
第一次凝望你离开我的背影
就盼望立刻能够明天再相聚
不小心梦中让感觉能延续
模糊中你最清晰

I believe in you
窥探那双迷人深情的眼睛
我的心留给你
我的人在附近
不必立刻作回应

不想爱的轻易
需要让你动情
因为怕你会离去
想念让人窒息
所以不离不弃
每分钟都要和你亲近

让你安全我可以寸步不离
自尊都不要我也置之不理
不想要未来有任何片刻会议

I believe in you
窥探那双迷人深情的眼睛
我的心留给你
我的人在附近
不必立刻作回应

不想爱的轻易
需要让你动情
因为怕你会离去
想念让人窒息
所以不离不弃
每分钟都要和你亲近

Ooh I believe

I BELIEVE 我相信

2009-04-11T02:04:00.000-07:00

-The best ever harmonised korean song by TVXQ

everything 王力宏

2009-04-11T02:02:00.000-07:00

故事里的起承转合有一些忘记
做了多少错误的选择
原来波折才暗示着该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻
就算别人都说我们没什麽出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything
辽阔天空巧合相遇有多少机率
多少烟火坠落无痕迹
因为幸福没有捷径难免要绕道
不被看好自己要走到
就算别人都说我们没什麽出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
你就是Everything
就这个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything
Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天永远从此刻开始算起
你就是Everything
就如这个原因我会永远记住这种感觉
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

ARgHHHH!!!~~

2009-04-09T00:15:00.000-07:00

GOT SAMAN AGAIN!!!!!

TOATAL SAMAN = 4
PAID = 1
UNPAID = 3!!!!!!

MA DE DBKL!!!!

mal-gastric n sudden high blood pressure

2009-04-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

well...
me and liang ponteng skol today... accidentally.... no liar a ms cally...

very honestly...
i packed my bag... packed everyeverything b4 i went to bed...
swt...
things always happen to against me....
pity sze howe...
the trial week.. i guess he must had tortured alots... din sleep well nor eat enough...
bro... u cant be like that lar...
by the time u manage to become a doctor... but u have weak body condition... pathetic right???
told u to eat lar....
diet = do more sports..... nt taking less meal...

we took care of him till very late nite i tink...
looking at him suffered the whole nite made me recalled of my own gastric that happened quite often last time...

i used to suffer severe gastric pain very often....
throw up... shiverring.... dizzy.... vomit again... then unable to excrete for the whole night....
he just had his "DEBUT" gastric experience yesterday~
eat more.. till u are full la at least....

zzzzz..... really moody right nw.... i am stuck.... in everthing... lost.... in everywhere!!!!
i dun noe wads my next step....
i dun noe how much more time i have for me to recover the situation....
i am helpless....
getting hopeless....
jobless...
i hate myself nw... i do...

Korean Drama - alvin's recommendation

2009-04-07T01:02:00.000-07:00

very touching

very meaningful

one of the best korean drama i have ever watched!

Getting really apart from everthing i had....

2009-04-07T00:53:00.000-07:00

family....
my best ever friends.... (my ss family... my TT besties.... )

things are being altered around me...
i dun even realise that....
AS trial.... then comes AS real exam....
then wad?
all my friends are gone as well....
its been 1 month i din go back to my own home already....
but yesterday... i had a great day with my fellow classmate... after-exam celebration~ elaborate more if got time....

I refuse to....

feel weak...

feel lonely....

LeeHom's everything! alvin's recommendation

2009-04-07T00:47:00.001-07:00

-awsome awsome song...... sentimental love song

you are my everything

GOT TAGGED BY CALLY~~

2009-04-06T08:14:00.000-07:00

1. The person who tagged you?
Miss Cally

2. Your relationship with him/her is
Good friend, classmate, schoolmate, "lepak gang"

3. Your impressions of him/her
Smart, very smart, very very smart, very very very smart....

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
she tagged me... random tag wo~~ super-duper random tagging~!

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you
oi mr. driver. go mandi!

6. If he/she becomes your lover you will
make her the happiest girl perhaps?? thats the best thing a lover deserves~

7. If he/she becomes your lover,things he/she has to improve on will be
erm... currently nt so close with her. so, dun noe.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy,you will
Naa~ she won't. cant afford that~~ winks*

9. If he/she becomes your enemy,the reason will be
she erm.... becomes a murderer? murder ppl around me? haha.. silly answer i noe

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now
Bless her a wonderful and happy family. hope she doesnt have to face all the problems she has to face nw.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is
mysterious sometimes... yet very friendly and clever

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?
I am an ice. a playboy. a heart breaker.

13. The characters you love of yourself are
erm... optimistic and confidence at certain extent

14. On the contrary,the characters that you hate about yourself
my pimples... darn... din sleep enuff nor drink enuff... avoid doin these... better listen~!

15. The most ideal person you want to be is
taking leehom as role model~ but i still like being myself.. always do~

16. For people who care and love you,you say something to them
I will always love u.

17. Pass this test to 10 persons who you wished to know how they feel about you
-1- Seow yen
-2- Jian Shen
-3- Cally
-4- Elaine
-5- Mei Mei
-6- Wei Yuan
-7- Jasmine
-8- Lee San
-9- Wooi Liang
-10- Hao Ting

18. Who is no.6?
a good brother of mine who jokes often and forever~!!

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
male~~ veli tall some more~~

20. If no.7 and no.10 together,is that a good thing?
hao ting only likes someone.... no matter wad hor~~ right pinky?

21. What is no.2 studying about?
A-Levels in TARC. Classmate of mine.

22. When is the last time you had a chat with no.3?
just nw... after bio MCQ exam.

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
tak tahu... ask her tomolo~

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
Ya... one elder brother.. right?

25. Will you woo no.3?
she doesnt like specky guy~~ hahaha~~~

26. How about no.7?
nonono... she is weiyuan's.

27. Is no.4 single?
nt sure~

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Saw. Saw Mei Mei.

29. What is the hobby of no.10?
CC-ing and fifa online2~!

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
Yea~~

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
TARC.

32. Talk something casually about no.1
Intelligent girl. friendly as well~

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
i aint a gay~~

34. Where does no.9 live at?
Bukit Indah, Ampang.

35. What colour does no.4 like?
dun noe wo....

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
no comment~

37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
dun dare comment~~~ hehe

38. What is no.6 doing now?
Dating with no. 7

hahlehluyayayaya~~~

2009-04-06T08:03:00.000-07:00

well very well.....
AS TRIAL FINALLY ENDED!!!

will be updating soon.... stay tuned...
cally: tag to be completed soon.... quite long lo the tagging.... ^^.. tag u back later!

zzzzzzz

2009-03-31T09:29:00.001-07:00

no mood to study
not passionate anymore to fight on lar....
sigh...
anyone got biology paper2 tipsss?S?S??SS?

boyzone~ grabbed from Elaine ^^

2009-03-31T09:12:00.000-07:00

this is really really a nice song...
classical yet romantic plus meaningful~
n... i wish i could sing as well as them~

LOVE ME FOR A REASON

I will be ur best "male-friend"~

2009-03-27T09:17:00.001-07:00

i noe it sounds sudden...
it just came over my mind suddenly~ lolz...
7 years is nt long... yet not short time...
its enuff dy...
i cant be like her.. honestly i cant~
always take care urself yea...
take care take care...
drink water de drink water...
put on blanket de put on lo...
all the best~ to u and to me~~
i nid it so damn much.. i mean the luck... for my coming TRIAL EXAM~~
tataz~~

A VERY IMPORTANT REMINDER~!

2009-03-27T09:02:00.000-07:00

U HAVE NO EXCUSE NOR ANY BETTER REASON TO NOT

SWITCHING OFF UR LIGHTS LATER~!

8.30PM-9.30PM

( THE LONGER THE BETTER )

SUPPORT EARTH HOUR!

STOP THE GLOBAL WARMING!!!!

SAVE THE EARTH BEFOR ITS TOO LATE!

EARTH SICKS, DEATH APPROACHS US!

EARTH GONE, WE GONE..

NO EXCUSES I REPEAT...

WHOEVER READ THIS... PLS LAR..

请把灯关上!

PLS SWITCH OFF UR LIGHT!

TOLONG TUTUPKAN LAMPU!

juz an hour nia... kk?

well... no pain no gain~

2009-03-27T08:38:00.000-07:00

ok!~
no more memories, no more recalling~
no more sleeping till backache... this often happens to me when time passes 1pm or 2~
no more her and hers... she and her she.. wadever~ lesbian is legal and worldwide well-regconised de mar.... i noe~ but i dun like it lar... dun argue this with me.
just exam, sigh.... next week will be the mid course as well as the AS exam trial!

one more thing... er...
juz read thru someone's blog...
maybe i am thinking too much... or maybe i have sixth sense?
haha...
better nt stating wads exactly in my thoughts here, lolz~ coz she might be reading this post sooner or later~ boo~!
a girl that caught my attention
admire her but not close with her~
used to be competitor some more, lolz~
anyway...
I DUN NOE WAD AM I TRYING TO DELIVER HERE~ HAHA~ "DRIVING MIDNIGHT" TOO OFTEN... BUT IT ANIT CRAPS LAR... I MEAN THIS DELIVERY MSGEY THINGY...LOLZ~

exam really torturing me nw...
no pain no gain
no pain no gain
again, no pain no gain....
the excuse i am using nw to get my heads down studying

current health condition:
-slept less than 5 hours a day... i mean it... aday=24 hours
-drink less....but bath alot, to make myself awake all the time even in midnight.. juz hope my kidney doesnt get ill lar....
-pimples getting more i think... my eyebags are heavy.. cant see clearly, lolz..

anyhow...
NO PAIN NO GAIN...
HOPEFULLY....

方大同三人游

2009-03-26T08:27:00.000-07:00

有些话你选择不对他说
你说某种脆弱我才感同身受
我永远都愿意当个听众安慰你的痛
保护着你从始至终

就算你的爱属于他了
就算你的手他还牵着
就算你累了我会在这一人盯两人疚三人游
悄悄的远远的或许舍不得
默默地静静地或许很值得

我还在某处守候着说不定这也是一种幸福的资格
至少我们中还有人能快乐这样就已足够了

有些话我选择保持沉默
别把实话说破隐藏我的寂寞
你的情绪依然把我牵动
躲在你心中角落的心事我们懂

不知道不知道不知道为什么为什么我的爱我的爱
还留不住你的离开
却总在等待着你回来
说不定这也是一种得不到的却美好的
就样就已足够了
这样就已经够了

this song... brought me alot of sour feelings....
bitter memories...
"the one u love... she/he loves another ones... no matter how hard u try to win her/his heart... it ends up bitter heart... "

"knowing that she is having a wonderful life with her... it is good enough for me already... i dun dare to demand anymore than just thinking of her... instead of having her by my side"
but one day... if u are tired and wounded... i will always be thr for u... i hope i could be the one that let u lean on...
i noe...
i am unsafe guy...
i cant giv u the romance u desire...
but i just couldnt stop myself from thinking about u...
u are always my best "female-friend" n i am always ur closest "male-friend".. like u said

true enuff~ I'm June baby~

2009-03-26T08:17:00.000-07:00

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

This is an ORDER!

2009-03-21T07:22:00.001-07:00

latest hot news~

2009-03-19T05:57:00.000-07:00

Jian Shen has started his very own blog~
here's his blog address:

jianshen90.blogspot.com

dun be lazy to view it~

juz click on the link above and take a look~!

he is good in blogging~~ and as well as camwhoring~~ wakaka

perhaps he will become the new mr.blogger of SN9G~ haha

looking forward for ur next post~ bro!

all the best in ur love relationships, studies, financial, health~~ and many more lar...

eh, enuff heng dai mou? i guess i am the first to promote ur precious blog o~ jk lar~

last but not least, nice blog~ all the best!

recalling to last friday~ hanging out at Times Square

2009-03-16T05:01:00.000-07:00

early in the morning...

camwhore-ing a while b4 taking off to college~
movie after school~ the first movie i was goin to watch after almost 2 months~ lolz~~

well, class ends at 2p.m sharp~

we kinda like stucked outside the classroom while deciding what to do in times square~ for about 15 mins i think~ then we took off~

3 cars started the journey~

(mine, meimei's and yoonhung's...)

cally's dun noe where alr~ she left quite early, got "business"~wakaka~

siewlee din follow.... she doesnt like sing k~ swt, eventually we din sing k tht day lar~~ sorry!~

DRIVING~ boring, speeding... almost sleeping~~

SWT.... I NOE U ALL VELI TIRED... I TIRED TOO LAR OK??? ZZZ

AT LEAST SOMEONE ACCOMPANY ME CHIT CHAT A WHILE MAR...

these two... brothers~ takeshi and "juniors' favourite"... haha.. (u noe wad i mean here..)

YOU ALSO~! PINKY TING~

haha~ wad a " man" look u have here~~ rite jianshen? haha, if u beg me.. then i will try to take this off lar.. ok? hahaha... i am so evil today~ but ur so called "evil" lagi evil rite? hahahahawakakaka

AT LAST...

we reached times square at 3 pm... met up with the rests at "SEK HOU", their fav restaurant~ they like killing their wallet there~ economy crisis guys~ although got 30% lar... haha

IN BETWEEN...

we were struggling whether to watch movie or sing-k... then, after considering everything back to back... we decided to watch "RACE TO WITCH MOUNTAIN", starring.. THE ROCK (DWAYNE JOHNSON).. one damn gud looking boy and one damn pretty girl~~ a nice movie after all~ enjoyed the comedy scenes and the actress~~ she looks so so cute~ make me wanna become an alien as well~

LAST BUT NOT LEAST...

jokes popped up~ refer to my previous posts~ haoting the joker and wei chie funny joke. haha, when school reopen.. i gonna laugh at them again~ wakaka~ well, we went to KFC for dinner b4 we headed back to setapak~ sent hui joo back to her home and wei chie the mamaboy as well~ then the rests of us went to CC for "midnight fight"~ haah~ it din last long as we all were freaking tired and sleepy~ reached back condo and slept at 5~~

swt... i din mean to make this post like a diary... sigh.. nvm lar.. who will notice anyway~ blog for fun only mar~

wil update more soon.. ^^

responsible driver~ vin`zai~

bachelors sleeping time~ or maybe acting studying?? haha

2009-03-16T04:51:00.000-07:00

erm.. ok..
this production of video is simply just for laugh~
no offence to anyone ok??~ peace~ =p V

yoonhung and william.... they were really sleeping~~
but wooi liang and chingjia were just acting coz i asked them to~ haha

-look at how ching jia acted as "Andy Lau trademark gesture n wooiliang's "I got wad the answer" act~~

enjoy~ more to come in the future~ beware SN9G~~~
u might be one of "them"... dangdangdang~~ ^^

"how's ur A level so far?"

2009-03-16T04:07:00.000-07:00

once again..
my grandparents asked bout my studies...@.@??

..... few sec silent.....
coz i din noe wad to tell them...
mid course is coming so so fast... just one more week to go...
then AS exam... @.@!!

wanted to tell them honestly...
"i am too lazy to touch a book... I am dying coz of maths~~!!"
"i dun noe how and when to start study~"
"i went to CC alots..."
however, i told them.... i lied...
"its all fine, no worries~^^"
swt....

at the same time... my dad asked the same question again... on the way home from grandpa hse.
my mom? she din ask, coz she always knew that my INTEREST isnt totally into science studies.... she knows more than them....
what to do? again... i am the eldest, my dad said that...
"u gonna take good care of ur siblings in the future, u noe??!"
"i definitely gonna take care them... but... must i be someone u espect me to become????! sigh..."

wondering... wad are my fellow classmates doin nw? all must be busy preparing and studying...buried under books-mountains...
see u all study so hard only make myself more stress... duh!!
arghh...... sienz o.... i am fighting for my will against the "fate"!!!!

ambition vs fate

I WANT TO CHOOSE NOT TO LOSE ON FATE THAT LIES ON ME~

BUT I CANT... JUST SIMPLY CANT...

ITS A NO-GO..

Knowing myself better~ 9/10 are true bout me

2009-03-14T10:02:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. (heard this from some people before)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Hao ting funny joker

2009-03-14T01:52:00.000-07:00

as we were all laughing at wei chie's chicky meal.... another funny story happened again...

here it goes.. I was being concerned bout how hao ting goin to go back his house since the time was alr 10.30pm.... he told me that he would take KTM back to his hse...

"KTM?? when's it is closing??" I asked.

"11pm lor.... i think lar..." hao ting said.

"what!? nw alr 10.30 and u still eating nw??" me.

"yea~~ KTM IS JUST OUTSIDE MIDVALLEY ONLY MAR~~~!" haoting confidently said.

"hahahahhaahahhaha, hao ting. we are at times square nw lar.... wake up lor pls~~" i said.

then, everyone is laughing at hao ting... haha... even wei chie is laughing as well... since nobody will laugh at his chicky meal already~ haha

at the end.... hao ting wasnt able to back home by KTM as the time when we finish our dinner was 11+pm... haha...
next up... we went to CC AGAIN~~ jianshen overnight at yoonhung's place... haoting back to condo.... chingjia william back to hostel..... all together at 3am~~ fuiyoh~~

Wei Chie funny joke

2009-03-14T01:16:00.000-07:00

wei chie's chicky meal~~

talking bout funny things that happened, yesterday.. we as in, Wooi Liang, yoon hung, jianshen, ching jia, william, hui ru, wei chie and hui ru... went to times square to watch "Race to Witch Mountain", a nice movie~ i rate it as 4 out of 5~

after movie, we were wondering where to go... then, WeiChie said he was starving and kept asking us to go have somthing to eat... firstly, we went to McD (again...)as we all agreed to, however, we din eat thr.. coz wooiliang and weichie suddenly wanted to eat KFC...(sigh... undecisive two fellas...)

lets make some facts clear abit here...

-wei chie is absolutely starving... he din join us during lunch at "SEK HOU" since he had project with meimei that time...

-he was definitely goin to order a very big set of fried chicken.. make sense? he is thin, but he can eats alot... some more he was starving... right?? right??

-ok then... he also likes to joke and make everyone laugh.. haha, correct??

this is wad happened next up~

-eventually, he ordered a set of...... CHICKY MEAL~~ accidentally!!~

haha, he explained that he really ordered a set of dinner plate... but they gave him a set of chicky meal indeed!!! some more, he was complaining that they din giv him the free toy that he was supposed to get. free toy out of stock~

-we wondered how he told the cashier... he kept silent... and sadly finished his chicky meal~~

hypothesis~
"satu chicky meal pls, tq" or maybe...
"satu nugget, satu pepsi mini size, satu cheezy wedges dan satu salad kecil~~ " ..haha

I dun noe how he ordered it.. but he really did order a set of chicky meal eventhough he din say the "chicky meal" words out! haaha

its not over yet~
since he ordered such a mini size set... he decided to share another set of snack plate with haoting... this dinner had cost him almost about RM20~

however, at the end he still ended up hungry-ing.... haha, why a??? becoz

hao ting ate more than wad he supposed to eat~!! haha..he was as hungry as weichie~ haha...

eventually, wei chie only managed to have a few pieces of meat...

they were arguing and fighting all the way then...

but no big deal lar... just kids fighting.. teasing each other~~

peace turned up back at the end...

updating~~

2009-03-14T00:48:00.000-07:00

well...
din update much coz i had a very busy and really tiring week recently... ^^''

-fellow bachelor gang and myself have been non-stop visiting to CYBER CAFE for this whole week~!!! everyday after class~~~ we used the "holiday's around" as our "perfect excuse" for everytime CC visit~! haha~

-will be uploading some videos whr i took in times square arcade~~ some funny ones~~ haha

-n some funny stories happened on wei chie and haoting~~ hahaha

Promise...

2009-03-09T08:16:00.000-07:00

AS trial... 30th march,
My besties Chinese gathering biggest ever event.... 28th march, i am goin to sing that day, in front of... 1500 people... probably..

Headache and confused nw...
I dun noe, i not sure whether I would handle such event when trial is just two days after... I dun noe whether i can manage my studies either... mess up.. almost...

however,
I must not reject my frens...I WILL Not~

I am part of the organization comittee... they fail, i fail too...
I will sing that day... no matter wad.. cause i promised them~

A little confession...

guys(fellow ss family members), I know I am getting apart day by day...

my life is almost mess up here...

sometimes, I would recall back of wad crazy stuffs and all the camping events we had done b4...

I miss the moment... I miss campfire..... I miss camping.... I miss u guys...

sorry... i will try my best to catch up the pace...

爱错 - 王力宏

2009-03-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

北风毫不留情把叶子吹落
脆弱的她选择了逃脱

叶子失去消息风才感觉寂寞
整个冬天北风的痛没人能说
我从来没想过我会这样做
从来没爱过所以爱错
我从哪里起飞从哪里降落
多少不能原谅的错却不能重来过

翻开回忆角落完美的生活
以为幸福都可以掌握

仔细回味当初那个故事背后
oh 原来是我犯下从没承认的错
我从来没想过我会这样做
从来没爱过所以爱错
我从哪里起飞从哪里降落
多少不能原谅的错却不能重来过

在这少了你的世界 oh~
找不回那些感觉其实我不想道别那些过去
我从来没想过我会这样做
从来没爱过所以爱错(从来没有爱过那黱认真)
我从哪里起飞从哪里降落
多少不能原谅的错却不能重来过
我从来没想过我会这样做
从来没爱过所以爱错
我从哪里起飞从哪里降落
多少不能原谅的错
请你原谅我的爱错

alvin: i believe that everyone who had a loveship b4 surely get this song well... honestly, i had one myself... its over anyway, fortunately~ grow up fellows~
do not hesitate to leave someone who doesnt appreciate u at all!~ ^^''

Tuts My Barreh!!! wtf is tis~?! mariah carey's fans gonna get mad~!

2009-03-08T11:34:00.000-07:00

swt.... chemistry not cancelled~

2009-03-05T20:23:00.000-08:00

wad to say.. it is undeniable tht...
Mr Loh is really a hardworking tutor... as we all thought that he will absent, he came indeed! He came today!
so frustrated... yet disappointed...
we all were starting to have the CC mood dy, goin to take off in few more mins while some of us have our breakfast at canteen 1...
then suddenly we were informed that chem practical class was on as usual.... wth...
a bunch of blurs(us) raced to practical lab without delaying... coz we noe that MrLoh will nt mark the attendance of those who was late for his class... how strict~ =.=''

well, for the first time, we are did the experiment eye folded, din even noe wad is the experiment was at the beginning... just kept on asking others whu came earlier... then did abit of this and mix abit of that... then end of story, experiment done... simply came out with a conclusion then walk off... somehow... biology lecture... swt... even boring... almost fell asleep~
cally was missing in action... wonder where did she go... coz she never miss class one... hope ntg happen to her...
jian shen was very awake during the bio lecture, eventhough he dropped bio... haha... kah yan was thr... get wad i mean? heh, bro.. u are really a loyal guy... all the best to u.. ^^

gotta eat more...
i am underweight... f... hw can i be...
nvm... i will eat more... build up more...

sincere apology....

2009-03-05T07:55:00.000-08:00

I noe its not fair to treat u like this...
hope u understand... i was really having class, nt bluffing..
hope u din have much troubles goin home alone~

time help us grow... trust me, u will grow up~
u will become a better person in the future~
i knew i said... whenever you nid help... i will try my best to giv u my hand... i meant it!

have a nice day..

hope u happy always~

sorry,

very sorry...

SN9G and their "小打" (eng simplification: CyberCafe moment)

2009-03-05T07:44:00.000-08:00

well,
its been a new tradition of our class... haha
a gud addictive tradition i would say~
yalar, i honestly like tis "tradition" alotS..
reason"
-kind of release studies stress thru "killing" in Counter Strike game, lolz.
-kind of like headshooting Michael and "Jordan" the superstar~ haha.. no offence.. just like it~
-its also a way of practising good communication system with new classmate for me~

YES~!
chemical practical class canceled tomorrow~ most probably~ haha
tq yea Mr.Loh~
by the way, quite curious whats his occasion on taking the leave... as far as i concern, he seldom cancel class~

so, wads is goin to happen tomorrow, i think we all can noe even with our eyes folded~ winks*
CS AND LEFT4DEAD~ HERE WE COME!~

my younger sis new bf? wtf?~

2009-03-05T06:29:00.000-08:00

just viewed here friendster profile...
and well, looked through her new updated photos...

walao...
her new bf... make up one!! wtf.. no comment... she can have a boyfren mar... life is so unfair de~ hor dad n mom?
nah, these is my sis... and hers(as far as i rmb... honestly i dun rmb.. he may be the 9th or 8th boy fren of hers... ):

my honesty on this photo:
-i dun see the the match btw u two... too bad~
-nah... true love~ read too much novel???
-i think ur previous bf looks better~ lolz

搥肺的一天 (eng trans: hit lung's day~) William's fav quote~

2009-03-03T07:11:00.000-08:00

back from college, (4.30pm)
5 hours lazy nap~ (9.30pm)
one hour cc online surfing... (10.15pm)
few more hours sleeps...

wtf lar...
din plan well to study... then tis will happen!
die lar die lar tis time...
i am serious!! worrying bout my coming exam alr... but my passion and mood to study is still in store room, buried under the ocean.. haiz...

i noe ntg bout BIOLOGY nw!!
and the freaking test is on next tues!!
MISS GERADLINE~~ haiz... ntg la.. just wanna shout ur name on the top of the mountain...

mid course...
"kena" bar or nt i also dun noe yet~ if they wan bar then bar la...
explain to my dad only wad...

however~
today chem lecture...
our class had some gud effort put in understanding the lecture~ haha
suddenly we all had the best study mood ever, scratching our head trying to understand wad Mr. Chao/Chiaw... (forgot wads his surname... his middle name nor last name.. ^^'') i miss classes alot lar.. ok??zzz

hope in the days coming... lecture especially...
we could have the same passion to study like wad we did today~ haha

"if everyday we study like nw... then our result will be very very good~", ching jia said
"huh? haha... ", meimei.
"lets go to CC~!!" yoonhung shouted.
ahaha.... u see... tis is so called the obstacles~~~ haha..
but sometimes.. i do like such obstacles~ haha... tomolo we will be having basketball game at 2pm at tar college~ stay tune! haha

michael and "JORDAN", the superstar~ "never pass ur ball to ur teammate" he said~ haha

i guess tis will be enuff for the latest update...
one hour in cc isnt long.. dun wanna extend the time~ haha... its alr 11.30 nw...

things surrounding me nw:

haw ting playing Left4Dead,

wooiliang updating his blog as well,

the freaking malays keep shouting for help... probably playing left4dead as well~ haha

good nite everyone~

sleep tight~ sweet dreams~

p/s to carin: its ok... sigh... just wanna tell u.. happy always~

苏丽珍- khalil fong~

2009-03-01T01:51:00.000-08:00

如果没有如果
错过才知错过
连旗袍都会为你复活还有什么叫你一直沉默
拉拉拖拖难道就是生活
一句话一点墨两个人快乐有几多
你在写一部写不完的小说
还是怕一切都会告一段落

苏丽珍你叫我明白花样的幽默
有情有义有时却有年华的寂寞
对所爱的人不说却对自己太噜唆想啊想
这是对还是错
到最后总是想得太多

如果没有如果
错过才知错过
连背影都会为你婆娑还有什么跟你永远擦过
拉拉拖拖难道就是生活
一个上一个落两个人美丽有几多
任在爬一道爬不完的斜坡
还是想一切不如重头来过

苏丽珍你叫我明白花样的幽默
有情有义有时却有年华的寂寞
对所爱的人不说却对自己太噜唆想啊想
这是对还是错
到最后总是想得太多

两个人能够开花就应该结果
能把握也就不该摔破
一辈子最怕闯过一种祸
是不是~蹉跎~ wuu~

p/s: meaningful, very nice songs by khalil fong... also listen to his, "love song" and "singalong song"! I will soon upload one which sing by myself~ lolz... ! stay tune!

Driving home alone~ lonely wishes...

2009-03-01T00:05:00.000-08:00

lolz.... it is honestly really boring and lonely driving alone back home yesterday...
especially in a rainy nite~
I made alot of thoughts in car...the same thought all over again.. while listening to MyFm;
my fav singer: leehom's "心跳"

Sigh...
if and only if... in order to live in this world/society( we dont have to become someone whu can earm money) sigh... or to be staright forward, if my parents dont espect so much from me...
I wish... i hope...
that i could sing the entire of my life... become a singer, composer... composing and singing love songs... doin things i like... i wished* its just a dream anyway...

since I was a small kid, I wanted to learn music... wanted to attend singing classes...

I was nt encouraged nor allowed to...

indeed, I was instructed and keep on reminded to study hard, get good results, enter well known university, score degrees and masters, and finally get a wealthy job...

I Cant Blame both my parents... i am the elder son... family's future life burden is definitely on me... hence, I have been making myself thinking optismistically... I make singing as my hobby... my soul... but not a job to be... nor my future...

Singing, means alot to me...

I watched and learnt...

I take and give...

I listen and change...

I Sing... in my own way...

i always think wad others are nt... and thats why, my ex-gf and frens around me always call me abnormal, mysterious, weird enuff to be an alien....mars-ian(火星人)

one life, a single lifetime... the only live of everyone of us have once in a lifetime...

i only wan to complete my only wish in this lifetime... to be someone i have been wishing to be...

but i cant let my dad and mom down... shouldnt..

vice versa, studies means lot to me as well, i understand... the only fact in tis world which nobody can ever change is.."only the most successful man will have the right to talk"...

I love money as well, lolz, money is everything wad... to some of us lar...

I have seen enuff wad money can cause throughout my life... no money no life.. no money no happy... no money.... etc etc... dang~!

Thank you,

my ex-gf,

my respectful TT nite senior, chung sing, michael

my boyband members, Prinz

nt forgetting... encore boyband Soul'Lez~

the moment we had, the song we sang... the passion... the soul i felt throughout..

chung sing,

thx for giving me those singing performances experiences...

my ex-gf,

thx for teaching me techniques, 台风 and 咬字

u are a great singer~! hope u can crown in the coming ASTRO SINGING COMPETITION!

good luck!

my Prinz boyband buddies,

it was my first experience singing in group...

to be honest, i enjoyed alot.. i improved alot in harmonizing...

Boriz!! i will learn beat box and show it to u someday! ^^''

Randy~ u are a very passionate singer... sorry, cant join u and boriz for the EP production...

Knife, good luck to u... seen lots from u... haha.. enuff for daily entertainment~ lolz

last but not least, to my encore comp boyband- Soul'Lez!

i was not a good leader... sorry..

we did well, trust me... we had the best teamwork together.. we sang well...

nic and nimal, i wll definitely miss you guys... ^^''

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UntitleD~ giv me one....

2009-02-22T01:46:00.000-08:00

I ain't a blogger, instead I am an actor as well as the director in my life.

"i'm lost.. in nowhere~ tis is no heaven, nor hell... i'm outside the box... with no borders anymore...
god bless me... grant me a whole new world with my whole pure life..."

ITS been 1 year i did nt eventually look into my blog...
studying A lvl in TARC... i am living outside... somewhere where Internet is absent... socialization is limited.. ==''

In the year of 2009, so called the ox-year....
some changes happened; 60% involuntary 40% voluntary;

1. changed into new class, SN9G -> which eventually means alot to me... helpful instead... in my previous class, i was always alone and cool... my ex-classmates seems like having a very universal gap with me. lolz... i dun noe wad happen btw us. Fortunately, the bachelors in my new class din make me feel the gap again.

2. broke up with her after half year relationship...

3. new fav quote: 什么毛？(eng translate: what fur>? haha... weird rite?!) but i often said it involuntarily... haha! my besties taught me these quote, to be accurate, he influenced me.

4. addicted to a new online game; fifa online2.

5. feel unwilling and hate to go back my home at cheras, prefer to stay in my condo... wonder why... maybe the gap btw me and my family... are really getting apart... swt..

whenever a year took place by a new year, i would felt a mixture of feelings in my head...
~regret on wad i did and wad i din do last year...
~stress and fear on wad is happening next up...
~planning... either study schedule or the entertainment... i guess i gonna play alot tis year. wad about study??? 毛咯~！！

guess i gonna stop rught here. Jacky Wu's show has been distracting me while i am blogging at the beginning.. lolz.~~ i love to watch is show; guess guess guess~

have a nice day everyone~
may god always be with you~ ^^'' lame...@@
nah... just be careful in wadever u doin lar.. haha... lamer~!!! swt

Saying "I Love You" isnt enuff to win a heart Totally...

2007-12-14T09:03:00.000-08:00

French - Je t'aime

Italian - Ti amo

Japanese - Aishiteru

Malay - Saya cintakan mu

Spanish - Te quiero

English - I love you

"xxxx, yet again, i would not take back my heart from you. Its yours forever ever."

I love you/Je t'aime/Ti amo/ Aishiteru... no matter how strong, how many variety of differ languages i used to tell her in order to let her know that i cant afford to lose her, I STILL FAILED...

"i'm sorry, i cant love you like how u love me, we cant be together, forever!" someone I loved so much, she told me...

I can still remember the day, she said it to me with the metallic tone... it wasnt the first time i heard that from her. U can call me idiot or wadever... but i have to admit, i attempted to have a love relationship with her for many many times....

Well, it's embarassing to mention it out how many times i had rejected by her.

Somehow, i couldnt forget and let the love dies.. i could not forget her... too stubborn, too "adios"..

reflashing back...

I used to be someone who do not sincerely treat a girl, until i saw her again on the street, i din greet her... it was pathetic for me. Seeing her holded by another her... she changed, the "her" that i knew wasnt like that... i was really tempered... she was basically definitely wont like a male now... not even me... my heart died!

maybe, not greeting her was the correct move... i walked past them, well, she did not regconise me... its been 2 years we did not contact each other... i was wondering and blaming alots.

"why i can still regconise her from thousands faces but she couldnt, why she would easily forget wat i said to her last two years? why???"

i did not blame her for long... till the day we finally kept in touch. It was meaningful for me, she said she was surprised and very glad to hear from me. i smiled deeply looking on the screen of my mobile phone...

The first few months after we re-contact were wonderful. We chatted almost every single moment, whenever we were free.......... but i knew i was doin the bad thing... she has a "boyfriend", but i did not stop myself from getting close to her... she seemed getting more and more interested into me...

"my inbox is full with your messages, yours?" she said.

"hehx, becoz i care very much about you mar." i replied.

"........." silenced, her.

"you there?" i wondered.

"nothing... weilun, i think we shuld stop all these now."

everything, our relationship, again, paused right there, silently without knowing why... i did ask her why, she told me that her "boyfriend" knew my existence and wanted her to "delete" me from her life.

"i will wait for you, i promised!" the last thing i said to her.

=== we were again, did not contact each other for another few months

2007 feb 20th.... its her birthday, thought about her again, my craziness revived due to my stupidity... i called her... wanted to wish her "happy birthday"... at first.. i could still hear some "tut tut" sound.... then "nombor yang anda dial tidak dapat dihubungi...."miss operator.

After many many attempts, i still couldnt wish her by 12am....

2007 june 15th... she sent a sms wishing me happy birthday... my heart shaken a while... wad she was thinking? wad am I to her?

"i wont reply her, i wont..." said inside my heart.

the next day, my fingers betrayed my heart.. i sent back a sms telling her that i am sorry for late reply... i lied to her that i had no credit to reply her...

AT last, i still, replied her... stupidity

Luck and love always abandon me.

i thought we could really make it at that time.... but i was wrong... she is a loyal ones... she and hers still together... its been 4 years long... which means i have been waiting for her for the same length of period..

again... not much details... failure happened to me once more...

i have nobody to blame...i have nobody to cry on...

ALVIN'S HEART IS DEAD...

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,

I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?

Why do I love you? I think and smile,

because I know the list could run on for miles.

The whisper of your voice, the warmth that i felt from you,

so many little things that make me love you so much.

The way you support me, and help with my emotions,

the way that you care and show such devotion.

Lost with you forever is where I want to be.

The way that I feel when we were closed to each other,

a sense of completion and overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,

the possibilities I see and the things we can do.

How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,

how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.

I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,

but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

original poet & author,

ALVIN

*basically, this is a post about my real past life. A life to be forgotten.

Saying "I Love You" isnt enuff to win a heart Totally...