current mood: down...

well.. its been long time since the last update.

first thing first, I'm really really really happy to be selected as the top 15... i was very happy! =)

but then, this happy mood didnt stay much longer... as i stepped deeper and got to know the rest of the top14. They are strong competitors! Most of them had much more experience and skills than me.

things are not as bright as i wished tho...

I become down often after all.

For the past few nights, I prayed. I believed if i continue paying more efforts into this.. GOD will not let me down.

-alvin-

少年梦九校联欢会， 终于结束了。

compared to last year's 宇言, this year's gathering. I had put more effort into.

and... the mixture feelings... sigh.. happy!! encore!! come back to me!!

真的很不舍得，真的真的。

也好想像永丰说的那样，抱在一起苦，好怀念。

时间真的过得太快了。。。。 慢下来好吗？？ 顶！

感触的是;

筹备的每一刻。。。Mamak，大伙儿在丰家忙做小册子，炸来炸去，跳了又挑，挑了又在跳。。。 跳舞真的不容易咯。。。唱歌好点, 哈哈！看到那么多ss的这样付出，真的后悔去年的我，一直以来，我都不认真做ss的活动，真他妈的我。对不起，我的兄弟姐妹们！！ 真的对对不起！看了丰，煌，小瑚的不落格。。。。。。 没想到会哭，可能是一直在想着那“最后一次”，我不要啦！！！ 很想做下去，可是，读书的读书，工作的工作，我想像不到如果丰被分去很远的地方就读。。。到时要做打更多油了。 哈哈！惨，又想到“最后一次”了。。。

九校当天；

接待！没想到我会是最早到的那位！多谢我的组员咯，各各迟到，有的甚至不会到，没管希啦，我不怪你们，因为我也常常迟到！哈哈!! 接了puchong, vivi 的，时间已经超过接待的时间了，只剩我一个在那边傻傻地等。。。jinjang selayang 的，真的很像我咯，迟到大王！等到了，带他们去和俊勇和宝成会合，还好有他们，不然我会来不及回到礼堂表演。

开幕，不是很顺畅。。哈哈，也不能怪谁啦。之后，一直想尽办法开声，死都开不了！气！结果，唱走音！丢脸到，希望台风方面有骗到观众。哈哈！ｈｏｈｏｈｏ！！　最爽的是－ｓｏｒｒｙｓｏｒｒｙ！！ ｈｉｇｈ翻天！听到台下喊我的名字时更爽！哈哈！人生第一次，不会跳舞的我这样卖力地跳！！希望我的舞蹈没丢我兄弟姐妹们的脸，paiseh。第一次嘛，又给了你们。第一次对着电脑掉泪。。。 又是你们。真是，前世欠下的啊！哈哈！

感谢；

幕后的SS 及工作人员。。i saw many of you did very well that day!! proud of u guys! thank you!!! without you guys.. the event wont be so successful! i heard comments saying that our gathering was like a CONCERT!! haha!!! =)

lastly, sorry for not continuing typing chinese, something wrong with the settings... paiseh.. and chinese really hard to type lor...long time to finish this. have to check dictionary some more!! omg... btw, i find it really nice typing in chinese. haha. especially when i want to express my feelings... will learn and type more in chinese. haha

what's next? boss? TanEngHong, the first ever and the only person i addressed him as "boss". i know that, u are currently having many difficulty moments right now.. family.. clu.. and studies.. sigh.. i also don know how to help u.. but one thing that i am 100% sure is, me and the rest of ss family... will always be thr for the next coming and the rest coming events!! whenever u say ok!!!

tunwong, thank you for coaching me dancing. I knew i am quite a dumb dancer. haha. sorry a brother... that day.. the boys are really yeng!! haha. i kept watching the sorry sorry videos!

kai ma, thank you for ur advices... u always so steady and calm one.. haha. u did great in gee. don be sad lar, that fella who say u fat should get a slap from me. haha. ok?

4 flowers, donald duck - sorry, i did showed my anger to u during the opening dance training.

moon - really nice experience. haha. next time sing again! u are a better singer than me!

kokchin - i always heard that u are a very responsible person. this time, i really saw it. u did really great in stage progress! omg.. amazing.. bravo captain!

actually - that day u look very yeng! and thank you for ur support, u are always so supportive one. haha.

MBS-KIA, kenqian - sorry a. i forgot to help u do hair!!! shit lor.. sorry sorry. why din remind me?!!

lichen and seemeng - really sorry, i kept making u guys have to redo and redo the dance steps coz i made alot of mistakes.. sorry guys..

wangji - thank you for ur camera... i know u quite angry alr de that time i kept asking u to take picture of 3jianke.. haha.. sorry yea.. u did well in taking photos!! thank you!

hanchong - why sick one.. deng lor... no fun jor.. but u still did wad u supposed to do. goodjob!! luckily u still can support tunwong to do that 45 degrees!

wenhui - thanks alot for ur help... u are kokchin no.2!!! really crazy de.. so responsible!! haha

ahpeng - thank you for fetching me to lrt!! haha. save me some energy. but no claim de a.

meiyee - ur food department really organized lor. compared to last year. haha. i din settle properly. but this year not enuff straw leh... haha

xiuchong & lingquan - haha. great mc leh!!! u two should give each other "ai de bao bao"!!

ailing - luckily u din come backstage fight with me. haha. if not i will not have enuff energy to perform dy.

thank you wenxin, kexin, caini, wanhuey, hsen ming!

WAN MEI DE JU DIAM~

My very own Fairy Tale...

"are you alone?"
"yea.... "
"can i join u for a ride?"
"yea. ^^"
"I thought you are a chinese, because u looks like one. sorry for the mandarin juz now."
"It's ok, i am half chinese, half philippines........... "
"oh! what's ur name??"
"i am Lyn..."

I will not ever forget such a friend like u, Lyn.
sorry for the troubles... the tears that we caused.
i could hardly speak a word that moment... i saw your mummy staring over us, that's why i left without a really proper goodbye greetings...

the fate came so suddenly but it left too soon.
i do not know when and where or even is it possible for us to meet up anymore in the future...
all i can do now is only by expressing my miss for u in words...
what if we could spend more time together.. what if... what if.... we could meet up again...

I really do appreciate this wonderful fate of us. Its a really fantastic pleasure to know such a foreign country friend like you.
You are so friendly..... and gorgeous. ^^





Especially for, Lyn Ng

HONESTY... or not?

some of us might be thinking this could be a new twist~ woohoo...
some of us might be sticking to their original mindset~
some of us don even noe the ugly truth behind...
some of us might never be able to face someone in personal...
some of us might never get a chance to see.... again.

.... honesty....
they're right. they had hard times.
they are right on their thoughts.. maybe...
rather letting those good people and those who can works well and have good management ability out unwillingly... why not we be more honest??
ok.. lets call off... the ones who can do nothing,.. the one who did nothing.. the one that gave nothing.. the one that failed to do something to regain the trust and the faith from those who are leaving...
that person would be me.

如果换我一个人退出, 能换回你们两个人(不包括国文), 我恨不得这样做!!
你们换吧!! 也请你们二位, 回来吧!!!
不要跟我说什么＂勉强没幸福＂．．．　你们回来就是了．．．　求求你们．
不要因为像我这样的人而作出这种选择．　

我了解你们受了多少苦，看到了许多不想看到的．
你们也说人是会变得，可能就经过这一次，状况会有好转呢??

如果要散, 我愿意做最后一位退出的, 看着你们一个一个的抱着 遗憾 退出.

GAPS 空虚

If i am awaken earlier...
there would be no gaps between us.
i would not feel awkward and useless while listening to what u guys had paid and contributed for the camp...

The 4th camp...
it brought me loneliness...
everyone seems much busier... i am the only one who had nothing else to do other than cleaning dishes. i did not like that feeling...
from my side of view...
i seem like a stranger to u guys...
i did not participate totally, coz i cant mix in. i feel like i have to right and the "min requirement" to do so.

Tuan Kang,
honestly... i did not involved in... any of it...
the nite when u guys were so excited dancing on the stage... i was alone behind the stage, worrying that my bad throat condition will ruin the nite... and become a laughter for everyone....

I tried really hard.. to ignore.. ignore wads been said by some of u guys,
i noe i cant help much.. i noe i seem jobless, burdenless... u guys were doing so much things b4 and during... i noe this will surely seems so unfair to u guys...
thats why,, i decided to leave as soon as possible...
i don wish to see the tears in all of u... due to the hard times of planning...
becoz i have not paid a thing for the planning...
sorry...

i really missed out a lot of things... and this is the time i feel really regretful and pessimistic.
九校, genting trip, ampang old town, times square...
i wish that, i would become one of u again... the real one...

i am regret
tht i din join those events
till now, i only find out that,
the gaps have gone so much wider.

空虚，
is all i am feeling now.
no matter wad, u guys would be the dearest friends ever to me.
i still believe that we must be in some sort of family relationship in our past life.
take care guys!
i will miss u guys alot.

GoodBye A-Level, college life, friendss.

really glad that exam is finally over....
i am cleaning the spider webs now... lolz``
woke up in the morning today... no more burden i felt.... lolz... no more exam... woohoo~~
realising tht i have very very very much free time to do watever i wanna to..!! shuang!

爽!!!!

goodbye TAR college...
goodbye SN9H AND SN9G...
goodbye TT nite...
goodbye to those ppl tht i wont be seeing u around KL... sigh... emo part approaching..
take care always my friends...

SNSD GENIE MV!!!!

MY FAV KOREA GIRL SINGING GROUP!!!

iKNOW

i knew sometimes when i kept silent... ppl easily misjudge me.
i knew whenever i keep close to anyone... rumours would ruin me badly...
i knew... i had made a wrong decision n i did not take serious resolution...
i knew someday in de future.. i would regret every mistakes i made in this two years...
i know, now... i am pretending to be optimistic about my future path..
i really hope my dad wont get a heart attack though....
i am serious... (he inherited the worst temper from my grandpa.... lol...my mom claimed... but i dun... lolz... )
i bet my mom... would support me whatever my decision is...
i guess... my siblings will be disappointed... n begin to feel helpless...
i know.. i know.. after this, i would not dare to step back in my hometown.. relatives will seriously talk n critic bout me...
i am not saying tht i am being regretful.. and the world is goin to end n there is no tomorrow for me...
afterall... this is juz a little expression from myself... its not tht easy to actually find someone who is willing to listen to all ur craps n problems... trust me...
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last month was a harsh ones for me...
been through some kind of situation.. silly situation... the cycle of my teenage..
(a peasant hoping to date a princess... @.@)
all the time, i try to look for the one.. the one girl that....
then...
i found her... but very immediately instantly... i lost her....
i guess, someone had cursed me.. lol! wad have i done to deserve this?
i know.... i seems quite a failure now(in ppl's eye)...
i know... this kind of guy don attract anyone....
things keep changing around me... i am the one who change the most... my closest friends say.

I'M afraid that i could not forget her...

萧闳仁 - 原来你就在我身边 (alvin's recommendation!)

a fantastic song by 萧闳仁
love his falsetto and de feel of this song's lyrics....
enjoy~!

Human being's emotions are scary. =REGRETFUL=

a moment ago...
I was eating the first meal of my day... at 9pm.. dun get this wrong.. i slept at 1pm.. so?
9-1=8hrs (approximately a normal being sleeping hours)... haha... i had 8 hrs of sleep..
but then... i din sleep for 24 hours.. hows that?
i dont noe how did i got pass it... the only next thing i felt was... headache.. starving like caveman.. in-need-of-professional=massage!!

an hour or two later...
I accidentally buffered a touching polytonic tone... i guess its poly -.^?.. with piano tunes as well..
Then...
i became emotional... i really mean emotional here.. *(in a sudden, i stopped everything i was doin.. mentally as well.. juz sitting thr.. EMO-ING)* my heart WAS like shrinking.. heartbeats slowed down.. but my brain was diligently wondering how this emotion could happen so suddenly... this music... reminds me alot of things.. and thus.. i decided to pour all these into my blog.. hopefully then i could gets better and sleep earlier in the morning later...
i could not sleep like normal ones somehow.. already... i had to strain myself till super-duper-extremely tired.. then only i sleep unconciously..

its not easy typing this post.. this time...
Thought of many things... events ahead... histories behind... personality and lifestyle i had... and the behavior i changed... I did have many aims... but now i do have some aims.. it's getting lesser for no reason.. maybe i juz grown up alot.. lolz... i do... no doubt...

maybe after all... all i need.. is juz a solution.. so that all my silly emotional moments can get pass quicker... i nid to conclude something bout my life... my live ahead...

the moment... now..
temporarily decided....
SINGING... i will take it as one of my favourite hobbies... something i love to do... something i could not control entirely... it isn't like "the thing" that had been given to me to control by myself... and i abandoned it for singing... i will come back to "the thing"... i promise...

i heard from alot of people... advices... encouragements...
but those juz makes me more confused... BUT!
but it does push me towards a clearer vision on myself... its like.. showing a mirror of myself and warn me looking at myself after all... the life misleads..
Hopefully.. I could surpass this....

I am really confused, worried, down, disappointed and

REGRETFUL...

=alvin=

back to home -Hari Raya Hols-

first of all... Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends~

felt bit more relieved to be back home here at cheras... couldnt resist the stress in the area that is so near around the college... always reminds me bout the big day when i drive pass it... =.=

I have been wondering...
wad would actually happens to me on the real day?
how am i goin to surpass the one.month examination??
maybe after all, i shuld not haven taken A Level science.... since i realised tht i am really not so into science subjects... duh!

back to wad happened in last week....
i had been wandering in cc for the whole week.. awesome! lolz...
my sleeping circle is totally interrupted... slept at 5 or 6 am.... then woke up at 5 or 6 pm..
stuck in chemistry... even in revision... wad the heck!!
lazy in biology... too much to put in my head... !!!
dumb in maths... too complicated to solve!!!
september... october... november... december... end of 2009///
wad will happen when 2010 comes??

sigh... regret for all my behaviors and wad i have done tht really changed my life b4 i come to college... not blaming college... not blaming the obstacles around college... neither outings...
most probably.. i am suitable in this kind of scientifically field... @,@

nvm... take a rest...
think deeply.. held back the responsibility and try.. i really mean try... not to let down those people who have high hopes on me... though i really feeling not comfortable and free in this chapter of my life...


by the way... Olivia Ong from Singapore is a really really really awesome+amazing singer... love her jazz singing!!!

天使脸孔天使的歌声~！！24 years old angel~

one my fav : alicia keys "if i aint got u"

ALICIA KEYS - IF I AIN'T GOT YOU

方大同 -《Timeless 可啦思刻》

專輯曲目】：

01. You Are The Sunshine of My Life (O.S. Stevie Wonder)
02. Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You (O.S. Glenn Medeiros) -de song playing in my blog nw~
03. Bad (O.S. Michael Jackson)
04. Kwang Chiu 狂潮 (O.S. 關菊英Kwan Guk Ying)
05. La Bamba (O.S. Ritchie Valens)
06. Red Bean 紅豆 (O.S. 王菲 Faye Wang)
07. Georgia on My Mind (O.S. Ray Charles)
08. Remember 記得 (O.S. 張惠妹Amei Chang)
09. Wonderful Tonight (O.S. Eric Clapton)
10. Moon River (O.S. Andy William)


專輯介紹】：

方大同2009自選輯
作為方大同音樂養分的一次註記
10首他的經典 勾起屬於你的永恆

倒流回心中 又一次難忘的刻骨銘心
～ 歲月流轉 疏離年代 ． 此時此刻 可啦思刻 ～

"有些歌 是一輩子的, 無論什麼時候出現, 都是新歌
男孩在自己的房間，拿起吉他，上了弦
他溫柔而緩慢地調著這把老吉他，專心的像是世上只有這件事情可以做
一首熟悉的歌慢慢在心中，如輕煙裊裊升起
他彈起了前奏，又唱了兩句，然後像是想起什麼似的……… " - 吊~

原來 這些歌曲
聯繫著過往和現在的自己
在時空中交錯著的
是我們了然於胸的擁抱

想必你會問方大同：
“為什麼會錄製這張翻唱作品呢？”
這個問題，其實是另一個問題的答案：
“是什麼啟發了你的音樂創作？”

方大同×張敬軒 拉闊音樂會 - 吻別

jazz version of wenbie by Jacky

-u might need to lower down the volume abit...

Khalil Fong(live) - Love song > 愛愛愛 > singalongsong

first ever soul musician in chinese pop!

really hope he could come to MALAYSIA for a concert....

girl... do u still rmb this song? i hope u are enjoying ur life nw~ take care always~

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You wanna know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You wanna know by now how much i love you
Probably change my whole life through
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will be the way it was
Like a guiding star
And i'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are

So come with me and i'll share with you
i'll help to see forever too
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't wanna live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You wanna know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You wanna know by now how much i love you
Probably change my whole life through
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

-out of sudden.. tot of this romantic song... by Air supply.. covered by 方大同.. meaningful lyrics.. wonderful memories... once i sang this to a girl... lolz~

ENJOY THIS PERFECT LOVE SONG~

RnB style cover by Khalil Fong~

update.. sort of~

well...
officially..
i am starting my healthy meal routine...
no more "diverse meals"...
-for my health...
-for my left arm
-for my skin
never goin to be sick anymore!

alvin's "one of the fav love songs" Kiss Goodbye - LeeHom

Kiss Goodbye
王力宏

baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走
去跟随

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
我终于明白

《少年梦之再续未了乌龙缘》

《少年梦之再续未了乌龙缘》

-basically... tis is the 3rd camp me and my friends are organizing in this end of year~

-the details are all written in the application form above.. click for clearer viewing~

-this camp is basically held on entertainment purposes.. social purpose as well... u list it.. this camp got it all.. trust me.. if nt, i wont be organizing this for 4 years long~

-this time, i will be doin the cooking job~
-any further question about this camp... do leave a comment here~ or pay a visit to:

http://shaonianmeng.blogspot.com/

-alvin-

well~ I SERVE NUFFNANG now~

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