really glad that exam is finally over....
i am cleaning the spider webs now... lolz``
woke up in the morning today... no more burden i felt.... lolz... no more exam... woohoo~~
realising tht i have very very very much free time to do watever i wanna to..!! shuang!
爽!!!!
goodbye TAR college...
goodbye SN9H AND SN9G...
goodbye TT nite...
goodbye to those ppl tht i wont be seeing u around KL... sigh... emo part approaching..
take care always my friends...
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
iKNOW
i knew sometimes when i kept silent... ppl easily misjudge me.
i knew whenever i keep close to anyone... rumours would ruin me badly...
i knew... i had made a wrong decision n i did not take serious resolution...
i knew someday in de future.. i would regret every mistakes i made in this two years...
i know, now... i am pretending to be optimistic about my future path..
i really hope my dad wont get a heart attack though....
i am serious... (he inherited the worst temper from my grandpa.... lol...my mom claimed... but i dun... lolz... )
i bet my mom... would support me whatever my decision is...
i guess... my siblings will be disappointed... n begin to feel helpless...
i know.. i know.. after this, i would not dare to step back in my hometown.. relatives will seriously talk n critic bout me...
i am not saying tht i am being regretful.. and the world is goin to end n there is no tomorrow for me...
afterall... this is juz a little expression from myself... its not tht easy to actually find someone who is willing to listen to all ur craps n problems... trust me...
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last month was a harsh ones for me...
been through some kind of situation.. silly situation... the cycle of my teenage..
(a peasant hoping to date a princess... @.@)
all the time, i try to look for the one.. the one girl that....
then...
i found her... but very immediately instantly... i lost her....
i guess, someone had cursed me.. lol! wad have i done to deserve this?
i know.... i seems quite a failure now(in ppl's eye)...
i know... this kind of guy don attract anyone....
things keep changing around me... i am the one who change the most... my closest friends say.
I'M afraid that i could not forget her...
Sunday, October 4, 2009
萧闳仁 - 原来你就在我身边 (alvin's recommendation!)
a fantastic song by 萧闳仁
love his falsetto and de feel of this song's lyrics....
enjoy~!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Human being's emotions are scary. =REGRETFUL=
a moment ago...
I was eating the first meal of my day... at 9pm.. dun get this wrong.. i slept at 1pm.. so?
9-1=8hrs (approximately a normal being sleeping hours)... haha... i had 8 hrs of sleep..
but then... i din sleep for 24 hours.. hows that?
i dont noe how did i got pass it... the only next thing i felt was... headache.. starving like caveman.. in-need-of-professional=massage!!
an hour or two later...
I accidentally buffered a touching polytonic tone... i guess its poly -.^?.. with piano tunes as well..
Then...
i became emotional... i really mean emotional here.. *(in a sudden, i stopped everything i was doin.. mentally as well.. juz sitting thr.. EMO-ING)* my heart WAS like shrinking.. heartbeats slowed down.. but my brain was diligently wondering how this emotion could happen so suddenly... this music... reminds me alot of things.. and thus.. i decided to pour all these into my blog.. hopefully then i could gets better and sleep earlier in the morning later...
i could not sleep like normal ones somehow.. already... i had to strain myself till super-duper-extremely tired.. then only i sleep unconciously..
its not easy typing this post.. this time...
Thought of many things... events ahead... histories behind... personality and lifestyle i had... and the behavior i changed... I did have many aims... but now i do have some aims.. it's getting lesser for no reason.. maybe i juz grown up alot.. lolz... i do... no doubt...
maybe after all... all i need.. is juz a solution.. so that all my silly emotional moments can get pass quicker... i nid to conclude something bout my life... my live ahead...
the moment... now..
temporarily decided....
SINGING... i will take it as one of my favourite hobbies... something i love to do... something i could not control entirely... it isn't like "the thing" that had been given to me to control by myself... and i abandoned it for singing... i will come back to "the thing"... i promise...
i heard from alot of people... advices... encouragements...
but those juz makes me more confused... BUT!
but it does push me towards a clearer vision on myself... its like.. showing a mirror of myself and warn me looking at myself after all... the life misleads..
Hopefully.. I could surpass this....
REGRETFUL...
I was eating the first meal of my day... at 9pm.. dun get this wrong.. i slept at 1pm.. so?
9-1=8hrs (approximately a normal being sleeping hours)... haha... i had 8 hrs of sleep..
but then... i din sleep for 24 hours.. hows that?
i dont noe how did i got pass it... the only next thing i felt was... headache.. starving like caveman.. in-need-of-professional=massage!!
an hour or two later...
I accidentally buffered a touching polytonic tone... i guess its poly -.^?.. with piano tunes as well..
Then...
i became emotional... i really mean emotional here.. *(in a sudden, i stopped everything i was doin.. mentally as well.. juz sitting thr.. EMO-ING)* my heart WAS like shrinking.. heartbeats slowed down.. but my brain was diligently wondering how this emotion could happen so suddenly... this music... reminds me alot of things.. and thus.. i decided to pour all these into my blog.. hopefully then i could gets better and sleep earlier in the morning later...
i could not sleep like normal ones somehow.. already... i had to strain myself till super-duper-extremely tired.. then only i sleep unconciously..
its not easy typing this post.. this time...
Thought of many things... events ahead... histories behind... personality and lifestyle i had... and the behavior i changed... I did have many aims... but now i do have some aims.. it's getting lesser for no reason.. maybe i juz grown up alot.. lolz... i do... no doubt...
maybe after all... all i need.. is juz a solution.. so that all my silly emotional moments can get pass quicker... i nid to conclude something bout my life... my live ahead...
the moment... now..
temporarily decided....
SINGING... i will take it as one of my favourite hobbies... something i love to do... something i could not control entirely... it isn't like "the thing" that had been given to me to control by myself... and i abandoned it for singing... i will come back to "the thing"... i promise...
i heard from alot of people... advices... encouragements...
but those juz makes me more confused... BUT!
but it does push me towards a clearer vision on myself... its like.. showing a mirror of myself and warn me looking at myself after all... the life misleads..
Hopefully.. I could surpass this....
I am really confused, worried, down, disappointed and
REGRETFUL...=alvin=
Sunday, September 20, 2009
back to home -Hari Raya Hols-
first of all... Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends~
felt bit more relieved to be back home here at cheras... couldnt resist the stress in the area that is so near around the college... always reminds me bout the big day when i drive pass it... =.=
I have been wondering...
wad would actually happens to me on the real day?
how am i goin to surpass the one.month examination??
maybe after all, i shuld not haven taken A Level science.... since i realised tht i am really not so into science subjects... duh!
back to wad happened in last week....
i had been wandering in cc for the whole week.. awesome! lolz...
my sleeping circle is totally interrupted... slept at 5 or 6 am.... then woke up at 5 or 6 pm..
stuck in chemistry... even in revision... wad the heck!!
lazy in biology... too much to put in my head... !!!
dumb in maths... too complicated to solve!!!
september... october... november... december... end of 2009///
wad will happen when 2010 comes??
sigh... regret for all my behaviors and wad i have done tht really changed my life b4 i come to college... not blaming college... not blaming the obstacles around college... neither outings...
most probably.. i am suitable in this kind of scientifically field... @,@
nvm... take a rest...
think deeply.. held back the responsibility and try.. i really mean try... not to let down those people who have high hopes on me... though i really feeling not comfortable and free in this chapter of my life...
by the way... Olivia Ong from Singapore is a really really really awesome+amazing singer... love her jazz singing!!!
天使脸孔天使的歌声~！！24 years old angel~
felt bit more relieved to be back home here at cheras... couldnt resist the stress in the area that is so near around the college... always reminds me bout the big day when i drive pass it... =.=
I have been wondering...
wad would actually happens to me on the real day?
how am i goin to surpass the one.month examination??
maybe after all, i shuld not haven taken A Level science.... since i realised tht i am really not so into science subjects... duh!
back to wad happened in last week....
i had been wandering in cc for the whole week.. awesome! lolz...
my sleeping circle is totally interrupted... slept at 5 or 6 am.... then woke up at 5 or 6 pm..
stuck in chemistry... even in revision... wad the heck!!
lazy in biology... too much to put in my head... !!!
dumb in maths... too complicated to solve!!!
september... october... november... december... end of 2009///
wad will happen when 2010 comes??
sigh... regret for all my behaviors and wad i have done tht really changed my life b4 i come to college... not blaming college... not blaming the obstacles around college... neither outings...
most probably.. i am suitable in this kind of scientifically field... @,@
nvm... take a rest...
think deeply.. held back the responsibility and try.. i really mean try... not to let down those people who have high hopes on me... though i really feeling not comfortable and free in this chapter of my life...
by the way... Olivia Ong from Singapore is a really really really awesome+amazing singer... love her jazz singing!!!
天使脸孔天使的歌声~！！24 years old angel~
Sunday, September 6, 2009
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