iKNOW

i knew sometimes when i kept silent... ppl easily misjudge me.
i knew whenever i keep close to anyone... rumours would ruin me badly...
i knew... i had made a wrong decision n i did not take serious resolution...
i knew someday in de future.. i would regret every mistakes i made in this two years...
i know, now... i am pretending to be optimistic about my future path..
i really hope my dad wont get a heart attack though....
i am serious... (he inherited the worst temper from my grandpa.... lol...my mom claimed... but i dun... lolz... )
i bet my mom... would support me whatever my decision is...
i guess... my siblings will be disappointed... n begin to feel helpless...
i know.. i know.. after this, i would not dare to step back in my hometown.. relatives will seriously talk n critic bout me...
i am not saying tht i am being regretful.. and the world is goin to end n there is no tomorrow for me...
afterall... this is juz a little expression from myself... its not tht easy to actually find someone who is willing to listen to all ur craps n problems... trust me...
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last month was a harsh ones for me...
been through some kind of situation.. silly situation... the cycle of my teenage..
(a peasant hoping to date a princess... @.@)
all the time, i try to look for the one.. the one girl that....
then...
i found her... but very immediately instantly... i lost her....
i guess, someone had cursed me.. lol! wad have i done to deserve this?
i know.... i seems quite a failure now(in ppl's eye)...
i know... this kind of guy don attract anyone....
things keep changing around me... i am the one who change the most... my closest friends say.

I'M afraid that i could not forget her...