GAPS 空虚

If i am awaken earlier...
there would be no gaps between us.
i would not feel awkward and useless while listening to what u guys had paid and contributed for the camp...

The 4th camp...
it brought me loneliness...
everyone seems much busier... i am the only one who had nothing else to do other than cleaning dishes. i did not like that feeling...
from my side of view...
i seem like a stranger to u guys...
i did not participate totally, coz i cant mix in. i feel like i have to right and the "min requirement" to do so.

Tuan Kang,
honestly... i did not involved in... any of it...
the nite when u guys were so excited dancing on the stage... i was alone behind the stage, worrying that my bad throat condition will ruin the nite... and become a laughter for everyone....

I tried really hard.. to ignore.. ignore wads been said by some of u guys,
i noe i cant help much.. i noe i seem jobless, burdenless... u guys were doing so much things b4 and during... i noe this will surely seems so unfair to u guys...
thats why,, i decided to leave as soon as possible...
i don wish to see the tears in all of u... due to the hard times of planning...
becoz i have not paid a thing for the planning...
sorry...

i really missed out a lot of things... and this is the time i feel really regretful and pessimistic.
九校, genting trip, ampang old town, times square...
i wish that, i would become one of u again... the real one...

i am regret
tht i din join those events
till now, i only find out that,
the gaps have gone so much wider.

空虚，
is all i am feeling now.
no matter wad, u guys would be the dearest friends ever to me.
i still believe that we must be in some sort of family relationship in our past life.
take care guys!
i will miss u guys alot.